Summer nights and nightmares

Its summer again in England and as we have more hot nights, I am finding the nightmares are getting worse again; and no abuse survivor finds nightmares easy to cope with :(

I sort of understand why this happen, and in some ways that does enable me to find ways of coping with them a little better. What the brain expects when you go to sleep is for your body temp to drop slightly. The hotter your head temp the more active it becomes during sleep, just the same way people tend to have hallucinations when they are running a fever.

One of the first things I have done is to leave the bedroom window open until just before I go to sleep so the room is cooler. Next was to have the min amount of bedding that is required to remain comfortable.

I found cutting my hair so it was much shorter also help a great deal, as does keeping it well washed, as greasy hair will retain more heat.

Cut out the hot drinks at bed time, a chilled glass of water or coco will help far better in summer, and also avoid those late night snacks.

Here's to a good nights sleep.

Finally got a cheap bread maker

Well after a lot of wondering about it, I decide to buy a new bread maker.

I was somewhat dubious about if it would work well or not, but I have to say I am surprised how easy it is to use and how well it can make bread.

I had tried several times to make bread by hand and it was hopeless, but this thing does all the hard work like kneading the bread dough and does an excellent job of it. Would recommend getting one if you have been thinking about it.

Cheap bread makers

rts - rape trauma syndrome

A lot of people think that rape trauma syndrome only applies to female survivors, but in fact survivors of childhood sexual abuse and also male rape survivors often have many of the same reactions.

In many ways it is also a part of post traumatic stress disorder and as such is a normal reaction to abnormal events.

just another day

well it's been one of those days again. I have had about 4 hours sleep since 1oam on Sunday :( and my brain has gone soggy. Will be going and trying to get some sleep in a short while as i need to be out by 10am in the morning.

Don't know who it is but some burk has been ringing me up each morning just before 9am and again tea time (for the last week) from an 08000 number, but not leaving a message on the answering ,machine. ... strange thing is when i try to ring the number back it says unavailable... so i have unplugged the phone the last several days.... just don't trust it when the number can not be called back plus a websearch shows no information of the number anywhere.... fuffing anoying that it means i can not use the phone tho.

Website went balistic for some Monday, up from an avarage of 350 visitors to just over 655 for the day... that was also with the server crashed for almost an hour.... so looks like google tweeked their search algo again.

Could murder a pint or 5 of beer but still on the anti biotics for another 3 or 4 days yet... so will have to do with water... but did manage to get a few ( 3 ) sleeping pills from the doc... so should get a few hours sleep tonight.... just got one new person to add to the forums before i go.

One of those Food_Processors drinks making things would make a good bedtime drink if I had one so will have to add one to my shoping list.

Oh well time for bed.

Keywords

For the last 9 months or so I have been tracking the search positions in goggle for 48 keywords (search phrases) for my main website. Over the last 4 to 5 months many of the positions had dropped due to lack of time spent working on the site... Last weekend out 0f the 48 only 9 were in top 10 places.

This last week I have done a lot of tinkering and now this weekend ...
32 are in the top 10
26 are in the top 5 places
12 are at number 1 listing.

Of course this won't last for long... as search engines change all the time and I expect in a weeks time those numbers will be down by half again unless I keep my eye on things, but the main site visitors was up by 156 above any sunday during the last 8 weeks.

18 new sections have been added to the sites UK amazon shop, such as Espresso & Cappuccino Machines and for the first time since well before christmas there have been £160 of goods ordered this weekend.... all other weekends have been zero.... giving earnings of another 11 quid :) ... that works out at about at about 49p per hour for the time spent doing it all.... and I suppose they could have been valerntines gifts... so will have to see how it goes over the next couple of weeks... but at least it has kept my mind off other things.

I need to start a couple more blogs this week... as I need one for my own feelings, one so I can talk about Male Survivor things, and another about site things ... plus of course it will also be better search engine wise for back links :) even though it will mean having to move some of these posts to the new blogs when I can find the time.

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Of the things that I had to do for therapy home work, I have managed to sign up for a group that goes on country walks.... that will do for both joining a group where I will get out among people in a safe way... and also for one of the two 5 mile walks I have been asked to do each week.... sort of two birds with one stone there :) Carn't say that I am looking forward to it all that much at the moment... as am full with "what if" questions about doing it... but at the end of the day if I want my life to change for the better, then I have to try things to make it change. If after a couple of times going to the group I find it is not the thing for me then at least I will have tried... but I will go at least 3 times to give myself a chance to get used to it. If I don't get on well with it then I will have to look for something else, but I carn't see it being all that stressful (it's only one afternoon a week) and might even help me become a bit fitter *grins* .... plus I could also do it alternate weeks if I need :)

I still carn't cope with the chat room at the moment, or reading / posting in the forums apart from admin things like adding new users ... and I wish I could as I feel I am letting people down... but I need to spend some time sorting myself and my own problems out for a while.

I wish the bloody nightmares would go away, as they are not doing my stress levels any good at all *sigh* but maybe the doc will let me have a few sleeping pills when I see him again later today... depends which one I see and what mood they are in.

I so wish that I did not have so much to get done this week, and so many places I have to go to... I could do with some time to unwind, but it don't look like Iwill get much chance till the end of the week *sigh*

Since this is a long post it can cope with another out-going link ... so here goes....

Many survivors of abuse often find that they suffer from Rape Trauma Syndrome that can take effect soon after the abuse or even a long time after. Several of the people on the Panorama program last night (big mistake for me to watch that *sigh* ) were still suffering the effects of RTS.

Oh well... time for a wash and shave and out I go again.